June 24, 2017 therebelsociety

First Year of Freedom

June 22nd 2016
This was the day that my life completely changed. Just to give a quick back story. I’ve worked at Citi for the past 8 years and even though there were some good days and some great people, most of the days were horrible. I used to hate everyday walking there. Every minute there felt like 8 hours. I used to get anxiety walking into those big glass double doors and some days I used to pull up in the parking lot before my scheduled shift and call our attendance line to say that I can’t make it and in the process make up some wild excuse like “my car broke down” or saying I have to take care of a family member that died years ago and acting like they were still alive (you can’t use a relative that is alive, that’s bad karma). Even though I used to be miserable and I was doing my side business on the side I really thought I would have a regular day job forever.
There was a moment that changed everything for me and it was something that didn’t even happen to me. Back in 2013 or 14, the job had just hired about 20 new hires. Some of them were in between jobs, some were leaving jobs that they have been at for years but all of them were looking to better themselves. Fast forward to 60 days later, Citi realized that they need to downsize and in most businesses and industries the motto, last hired, first fired became true. A lot of good people lost their jobs that day. That was the moment that I realized that I didn’t want somebody else to have control over my future. I should be the only person that is in charge of MY future. So, from that day until June 22nd 2016 I prayed that I would be able to quit my job and work 100% for myself.
So, when that last day came up a lot of thoughts were running through my head from not knowing if it was the right move, thinking that I wish I could just be complacent and stay here with my friends, and also thinking to myself, “what if I fail.” That was also my major thought “what if I fail at this.” That insecurity popped up a lot during those last couple of days there but I knew it was time for me to make this move and really bet on my talents and finally live the life that I’ve dreamed of for the past 10 years if not longer. So, I cleaned off my desk, said my goodbyes, and walked through those double doors for the last time.

June 22nd 2017
I’m sleep and my beautiful wife wakes me up saying it is your anniversary (which I honestly forgot about until it was mentioned in a podcast interview that I did days prior). When she left to go to work, I knocked out some work and it got me to reflecting on how things have been for the past 365 days.
Having the life that I live has been everything that I have dreamed about, prayed for and hoped for the past 10 years. I can’t even lie this lifestyle is very stressful because everything is on me. Making sure money is consistently coming in, working on the projects that I currently have, dealing with client’s full time and as well always planning for the future and trying to figure out how to get more clients and bring in more money. Those are some of the things that have kept me up for multiple night over the past 365 days. Another thing that I’ve noticed is that people close to you aren’t as happy for you living your purpose like you think they would be. It took me a while to actually get over this since I felt that these people would be rooting me on instead of making me feel like I have made the biggest mistake even though they never really have tried to understand what is it that I do. That weighed in on me for the first couple of months.
Even with all of those things betting on myself has been the greatest decision I’ve ever made. I wake up when I want to, spend my days doing the things that I want, and work with the people that I want. I don’t get the Sunday night anxiety that most people get anymore. Even though I’m not where I want to be in my career and I’m stressed out most of the time, I wouldn’t have it any other way. I love my life and the decision I made 365 days ago has been in the top 5 of greatest decisions ever.

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